Monday, 30 May 2011

An0thEr SleePleSs NigHt..

As I lay my head on my pillow this night
I searched for you who's nowhere in sight
I realised it was only the dream I made
For when woke up it was in tears I bathe

Again my sleep quitted and I sat up
In this quietness I mumbled a small hope
The silent prayer for you I prayed
Weeping myself on the pillow again I laid

This time I swallowed a sleeping pill - Coz
Two hours continuously I couldn't lie still
My mind is stuffy with thoughts on thoughts
Things about you and all other rots

Finally the pill inside bagan to work
Slowly my eyes drooped vanishing all thoughts
All that I imagined running through my head
I saw those in dreams with you instead

Friday, 27 May 2011

ShaMefUl BirTh..

For every person on this earth
Their favourite day is their births
But I din't find any reason to rejoice
For my birth is not my choice

Each one has a goal to achieve
This is the gift one day they'll receive
All I can is only dream
Reality does nothing but deceive

Life rewards everyone progressively
But it took the reverse gear for me only
How I was and how I am now
It punished me in every phase cruelly

Beautiful days can easily be counted
Ugly moments are plenty & dumbfounded
Overjoyed I found myself at times
Miserable I found myself all times

Sunday, 22 May 2011

H0w HaRd I've TriEd..

Every second I tried to hide
Covering my face, buried in lies
But however hard I tried
I need someone to confide

Can't controle this monster
That lives constantly inside me
This monster called fear
I wanna lock it throw away the key

Desolate in the spotlight
Can't see becoz it's too bright
It burns through out the night
And blindfolded me by this fright

Impossible for me to hide
Not easy to burst from these lies
Though in vain I have tried
To avoid this cruel painful light

Monday, 16 May 2011

The PoEt'S HeArt..

Silence is the speech she made
When her love has no single clue
No words to caress her lover's heart
They were lost with the golden hue

Alone within this poet's world
Gone are the dreams she swore they'd live
Her love tales are often unrelated
No words to utter...None left to give

The music stopped in her soul
Only silence surrounds her heart
When solitude swallows this world
The love within her began to depart

She lost the beauty once she could see
She lost the glory she saw each day
The poet in her pens her last farewell
No more love can she convey

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

My W0rlD 0f PaiN..

The pains that I find hard to control
Going through them only makes me whole
The pains that give birth to my tears
In crying they erase all my fears

These pains are sharper than the knife
They love to accompany me through the life
Only pains brought me down to my knees
They cruelly appear again at my pleas

To others these pains are wrong and bitter
Sensing them I became more fitter
In pain I weep at every song
The more I experience I only became strong

The pains which are not just pains for me
What I see not everyone can see
Day by day they make me addicted to - If
everyone stops inflicting it, never will you

Sunday, 8 May 2011

InSaNe IdEnTiTy...

I exist without an identity
Blurring sceneries are all i can see
Only numbness I feel in my pain
Why does happiness I hope again & again ?

I can seek the heaven alone - To
tell me where has my sanity gone
Madness is slowly creeping inside
I laugh loudly but the pain I cant hide

Feel so hollow, empty and void
The sound of weeps is my only noise
When did I smile the real smile actually
But I do try to smile really

Can't figure out what's wrong or what's right
Slowly & slowly I lost my insight
But I have no reason wanting to die
I have to live in this world of lie

Thursday, 5 May 2011

JusT wAnnA be With U....

The rain splashing to the ground
Forming a pool of water so round
I watch these little raindrops
That beat on my face without a sound

I wish you were here next to me
Enjoying getting wet happily
As we are soaked in those nights
Making plans of our future prettily

I wonder the same every night
Why do you keep wandering in my mind
Everytime I push you from my thoughts
Your loving face came lurching from behind

Constant smile appear on my lips
I can't deny what I feel
Like getting drowned from a broken ship
Thousand of reasons but none is real

Should I go on forever like this?
And pretend that everything is fine
When I just want you beside me
Until the sun in the east shines

Tuesday, 3 May 2011

FirE in My hEarT...

This long & everlasting pain
Never submissive to my tears
How can it quench my thirst - So
The unfulfilled desires I should bear

Smashing the unrealised dreams
Renewing my sorrows day by day
My wounds can never be healed
They remain as fresh as always

The life that moves ahead of me
Carefree to many stories untold
Many hopes are built on hopes
Many questions are left unfold

My replies seem very vague
No matter how clear I explain
The fire in my heart still burns
Though I put off, it appeared again

Monday, 2 May 2011

ShAttEreD ...

The darkness that revolves around me
Swallows my desperate hope slowly
Leaving me in a deserted state
Shattering all my dreams brutally

This heart, the creator of my pains
Did not pay heed to my cries
It rejoices at every tear I shed
Even if my prayers reached high

I no more have any fake smile
I don't know if I'm ever fine
I breathe in the poisonous oxygen
To let me live but my life can never shine

Devotedly I guard my grief
As I survive upon my sorrow
I weep cleaning all my sins - so that
Almighty will spare me tomorrow