Tuesday, 20 July 2010

AccEpt mE thE wAy I am...

Accept me for what I am
Love me as long as you can
Then you will finally see
How strong my love can be

I'm destined the way I am
I see no hassle with that
That's the truth from above
Everyone has to bear this fact

Everyone differs from others
Like me, so don't bother
Noone can be like me
And i cant be like thee

So accept me for what i am
Im real and like no fakes
I think im a good person
For Lord never makes mistakes

Thursday, 15 July 2010

AngEl's TearDr0ps..

My guardian angel is careless and free
It flew happily losing touch with me
But my cheeks are dampened by his tears
He has taken my smile like it's for free

When my lips shivered, quivered and frozen 
It darkens in fear as the rain cloud visiting
Yet my angel is always content
For it wont abandone me since he's Godsent

But it loves to see me sad, afraid and alone
So that i will only weep in this wind cold
Showing my hands out expecting it to fall
So that i can embrace it like a precious gold

My pain can be felt by the angel's soul
It is willing to stand my misery told
I pray for this hurting to stop
So that my angel can taste my teardrops

Monday, 5 July 2010

Still G0ne..

I'm still in love with you
Though i keep myself away
I live everyday on this thought
Wishing to have you one more day

My heart is so void and empty
Hearing the rattling noise inside
This noise of the broken pieces
Wondering whether like me you've cried

This pain lingers for very long
Which i'm sure you never knew
You just live everyday your life
Where i can never pass through

If ever things will get better?
Living my life without you here
Don't know whether it's bad or good?
I'll continue to cry for the coming years

Friday, 2 July 2010

HeaRtbrEak & HeaRtAcheS..

I went through many pain and heartbreak
Getting hurt every one more time
But i never learned from my heartache
I keep striving to make you mine

I've wept, drenching my pillow
And i've wept all the tears in the world
My cheeks Shine bright from my tears
Hoping one day to me you'll turn

Through my story i should be blamed
B'coz you are the one who controled this game
In tears i smile, in joy i cry
Waiting one day this heart will be tamed

I cried and cried for the lies you lied
Yet the trust i have has never dried
Sitting by the window squeezing my curtain
Yearning of my heart I'll be loved again

Sunday, 30 May 2010

BittEr TruTh..

One thing is 100% for sure
When I die hell is where i'll go
Seeing the amount of tears I shed
Almighty does not love me more

Howmuch ever I hurl & yell
Only my four walls can hear
When everyone proceeds to success
Only I tuk the reverse gear

Already destined with this life
Where joy & peace have no place
Suddenly somewhere out a blue
Another sorrow has come to face

I thought that was to console me
But behind HIS mind it did not seem to be
May be HIS hatred on me has no limits
That's why always in tears HE wants to see

Friday, 28 May 2010

DeliCi0us SiN..

Forget the last night I lived
So horrible I can't beleive
But he will only see my fear
Even he's not with me very near

Out of all the secrets I keep
Only this one is very deep
I have no place to escape
Since this is my own mistake

Wherever I turn is wrong
Yet my faith is still very strong
But why can't I get up at every fall
It makes me lost and feel so small

I fall down with a thud
Wanting to bloom earlier from this bud
Unsatisfied by what I get in turn
Ultimately in this land I get burnt

Can'T waIt aNym0re..

Everything doesnt matter for you
What is gone is gone, that's the past
But you failed to see my pain
Which lies behind a mask

Not easy to get out of my mind
Not easy to push it from my sight
Feeling alone, scared and deep despair
This is the battle I everyday fight

You touched my heart like an innocent boy
But beat me down and raped my joy
Amist this loss I can never cope
Don't know why do I still wait for a hope

Covering up my bruises with many excuses
By facing the world day by day
Trying to ditch my present state
Wanting my emotions to go away

Thursday, 27 May 2010

N0b0dy kn0ws..

This pain is lurching in my heart
Deep down it's tearing me apart
Only my keyboard knows i'm crying
Cant look straight since my eyes are lying

There's fire burning inside me
Ashes of sorrows is messed up dirtily
Nobody knows I'm cut & bruised
Even if my words come out fluently

Why do I feel so cold & lonely
It forms a void within obviously
This void comes from the missing parts
Which is broken & shattered wretchedly

Hidden feelings bagan to suffocate 
Yearning to cry out blaming my fate
Dying more in controlling this yearn
Wanting to flush away this terrible state

H0peleSsly dEv0ted..

No stupid love song can describe what i feel
But the words conveyed are not more than real
Day by Day the clouds keep changing
But the feelings inside me goes around like a wheel

Love can be a great thing for me
Higher than the mountain deeper than the sea
But it has its own nature and trait
That can kill a lover silently

I realised one brutal fact
Noone can judge the love i have for thee
The fault is mine if ever I expect
The pool of tears will form under me

When turning back to look at myself
I feel I'm the stupidest girl alive
But than regretting of what I've felt
I rather walk on fire ready to die.

Tuesday, 25 May 2010

The EndIng sTartS..

I'm exhausted with all I have to say
The beautiful words i employ are rotten away
My boat is sinking more & more everyday
Still waving up for anyone come to my way

I realise as i work more i make it worse
May be i'm the victim to people's curse
But can't leave behind what belongs to me
Becoming pretentious to people i see

Although being confessed by words of love
I beleive on surface as the white dove 
I know it in my heart, O my God I swear
I'm one in a million who suffers out there

I can only be what and who I am
This seems so hard, noone understands
I put my feelings into words that rhyme
To make you see and know, what is mine

Monday, 24 May 2010

Are U derE G0d?

Drowning everyday in this misery
That this egoistic world has only for me
Should i give up & not fight anymore?
For I'm chased by hauting memories as I go

Save me God from this hell on earth
Take me to where I see no dirt
Do not abandone me however I'm in pain
Reform my affair, make me whole again

Take a knife and scratch my heart
Dig further and break it apart
All you can see is the darkness within
There's a devil that lives in my existence

Struggling, fighting to erase my sins
Only blackness is found when ripped my skin
Can't live or die in this numbness
But have to survive to please the rest

Sunday, 23 May 2010

AngElic KisS..

Shower me with your angelic kiss
Where I can find my bliss
Since that angel is you
Only you know what to do

In you I search for my smile
Everytime I'm sad for a while
This has been slowly growing
The hidden love has been showing

Shower me with your angelic kiss
The reason that makes me exist
This is the downright truth
I've been waiting since my childhood

I can listen to you a lifetime
That this love is forever mine
Once I get your angelic kiss
Not a thing in life I shall miss

Saturday, 22 May 2010

All BecauSe 0f U..

Each day dawns with a smile
Greeting me with a love-flu

I hold a precious treasure
And that treasure is you

When something sad crosses my mind
I tend to think of you
A sudden change occurs instantly
Thinking you are with me through

Whenever i breathe short or long
This life dominates me with joy
Since i swim in the depth of your love
Noone can dare to destroy

My world is filled with beautiful things
I want to grab them & show you
The meaning you create in my life
And that's the reason sincere & true!

Friday, 21 May 2010

WheN thE m00n shIneS..

When my heart grips, I find your tears on my pillow
Don't know if it's due to the sins I made

When the moon shines, i paint your name on my window
Waiting and hopping one day to get pierced by this cupid

In the autumn night, I hear the wind blowing
Blowing the leaves of the tree to the ground 
But when i gaze at the stars shining
Reciprocating me with your love without a sound

When nightfall comes, i immersed in my dreams
With my eyes closed, i reach for your hands
The big white moon smiling down at me
As if you are stretching to me, with smile so grand

I stare constantly at the stars so bright
Trying to assure me, everything is for the best
Hypnotizing me with the hope of heaven
Assuring me, you are special from the rest

Tuesday, 18 May 2010

Cl0se yeT s0 faR..

A thousand kisses will never be
Enough to satisfy my heart's plea
Each day as it comes my love grows more
Deeper & deeper like never before

Writings & expressions will never do
In order to show my love is true
Further more my feelings go
My heart beats in somersault too

Although i'm trapped within a cage
But my desires erupt for you with rage
You are so close yet you are far
Burning within me like a striking star

Is this the torture that I should face?
Different actions of mine can only say
This will continue each passing day
If that Is written in my little fate.

Sunday, 16 May 2010

S0methiNg g00d..

I was immersed in a wicked childhood
Which developed into a miserable youth
Though it's terrible to think my past
But somewhere there was a hidden truth

For here you are in front of me
Don't know how and if it should
Is it due to some causes in my childhood
Where i have done s'thing good

It sure that nothing comes from nothing
There is a reason to everything
Don't know what it could or how it could
That's the reflection of my lonely youth

Here you are in my life & loving me
I wonder how and wether it should
After many years that I prayed silently
Because I know I had done something good

Saturday, 15 May 2010

WheRe's mY pAssi0n??

Search for my ultimate passion
You'll find in your lips

It's the right place for me
The place I want you to kiss

Search for my ultimate passion
Which I lost in your eyes
But it's the only passion
That helps me to fly

Search for my ultimate passion
Within your loving hands
The ultimate feeling of mine
That will make me expand

When you found my passion
You will surely understand
Because my ultimate passion
Is in you, my man :]

Wednesday, 12 May 2010

O baBy, I neEd U..

An unknown feeling of sadness
Pricks me with pain that's endless
I'm with me and myself alone
Without you my life is colorless

The amount of the need i have
Always let my heart misbehave
This is hurting me to the core
When I can't see you more & more

The injury my heart had caused
It's too late for the bleed to pause
But silently i'm prayed to be blessed
Waiting to hold you against my chest

I need you not only when I'm alone
Even when i'm with you on phone
When I close my eyes I feel your lips
Holding your loving face within my finger tips!

Monday, 10 May 2010

My SilEnt TeaRs..

No MoRe TeaRs, No MoRe SoRRow..
I wish my Life would end before tomorrow..

I feel so alone and cold
Like an aged soul who has become old
I tried to move but am frozzen
This is the fear that I never told

All words you promised to me
That will go on forever
All vows you did freely
But you had fulfilled them never

The cramp occurred in my heart
Which is caused by a sudden fear
But my eyes are lustrous and shine
Formed by my silent tears

Blinking in the middle of nights
Sleep hates me & vanishes from me
Is thinking of you the reason I fight
As my silent tears flow down freely

Monday, 3 May 2010

SweEt Em0ti0ns..

This heart is missing you
You live in my memory

The silence in the crowded room
Your only voice calls out to me

The mourn inside my heart
Slowly tracks me down
But its soul will not depart
Its soul will not let me down

The thorns of my emotions
Pricks me deep everyday
The pain it gives everytime
Reminds me for you I have to stay

My tears of sweet little hope
That run down my damped cheeks
They run with a melody
That will not make me weak

Sorrows fill my empty soul
Tuck me to bed every night
Filling my room with silent screams
Holding to me till day light

My heart has only one love
The love I can only give
Pure as the mist in the dawn
Pure as the way we shall live