Am I a l0ser?

I have always felt on an alien street
Loneliness dragged me by its feet
With no one to save me in pity
I went mercilessly into this city

I tried with my existing effort 
Failure seems to blindfold me 
The harder I struggled for it 
The deeper I felt into the pit

Hopes seem to blur its way 
As days passed on into each day 
Boldly I want to let go the strain 
‘Nothing’ is the only result I gain

Loudly I want to scream 
Thinking I have won your love
Remembering I live in devil’s den 
Who snatched away my only heaven

The hurts I possess never ending
Where emotions & feelings exist
Wound on wound affects me more
Plunging my life into painful horror!