H0w HaRd I've TriEd..

Every second I tried to hide

Covering my face, buried in lies

But however hard I tried

I need someone to confide

Can't controle this monster

That lives constantly inside me

This monster called fear

I wanna lock it throw away the key

Desolate in the spotlight

Can't see becoz it's too bright

It burns through out the night

And blindfolded me by this fright

Impossible for me to hide

Not easy to burst from these lies

Though in vain I have tried

To avoid this cruel painful light

The PoEt'S HeArt..

Silence is the speech she made

When her love has no single clue

No words to caress her lover's heart

They were lost with the golden hue

Alone within this poet's world

Gone are the dreams she swore they'd live

Her love tales are often unrelated

No words to utter...None left to give

The music stopped in her soul

Only silence surrounds her heart

When solitude swallows this world

The love within her began to depart

She lost the beauty once she could see

She lost the glory she saw each day

The poet in her pens her last farewell

No more love can she convey

My W0rlD 0f PaiN..

The pains that I find hard to control

Going through them only makes me whole

The pains that give birth to my tears

In crying they erase all my fears

These pains are sharper than the knife

They love to accompany me through the life

Only pains brought me down to my knees

They cruelly appear again at my pleas

To others these pains are wrong and bitter

Sensing them I became more fitter

In pain I weep at every song

The more I experience I only became strong

The pains which are not just pains for me

What I see not everyone can see

Day by day they make me addicted to - If

everyone stops inflicting it, never will you

InSaNe IdEnTiTy...

I exist without an identity

Blurring sceneries are all i can see

Only numbness I feel in my pain

Why does happiness I hope again & again ?

I can seek the heaven alone - To

tell me where has my sanity gone

Madness is slowly creeping inside

I laugh loudly but the pain I cant hide

Feel so hollow, empty and void

The sound of weeps is my only noise

When did I smile the real smile actually

But I do try to smile really

Can't figure out what's wrong or what's right

Slowly & slowly I lost my insight

But I have no reason wanting to die

I have to live in this world of lie

JusT wAnnA be With U....

The rain splashing to the ground
Forming a pool of water so round
I watch these little raindrops
That beat on my face without a sound

I wish you were here next to me
Enjoying getting wet happily
As we are soaked in those nights
Making plans of our future prettily

I wonder the same every night
Why do you keep wandering in my mind
Everytime I push you from my thoughts
Your loving face came lurching from behind

Constant smile appear on my lips
I can't deny what I feel
Like getting drowned from a broken ship
Thousand of reasons but none is real

Should I go on forever like this?
And pretend that everything is fine
When I just want you beside me
Until the sun in the east shines

FirE in My hEarT...

This long & everlasting pain

Never submissive to my tears

How can it quench my thirst - So

The unfulfilled desires I should bear

Smashing the unrealised dreams

Renewing my sorrows day by day

My wounds can never be healed

They remain as fresh as always

The life that moves ahead of me

Carefree to many stories untold

Many hopes are built on hopes

Many questions are left unfold

My replies seem very vague

No matter how clear I explain

The fire in my heart still burns

Though I put off, it appeared again

ShAttEreD ...

The darkness that revolves around me

Swallows my desperate hope slowly

Leaving me in a deserted state

Shattering all my dreams brutally

This heart, the creator of my pains

Did not pay heed to my cries

It rejoices at every tear I shed

Even if my prayers reached high

I no more have any fake smile

I don't know if I'm ever fine

I breathe in the poisonous oxygen

To let me live but my life can never shine

Devotedly I guard my grief

As I survive upon my sorrow

I weep cleaning all my sins - so that

Almighty will spare me tomorrow