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Wednesday 27 August 2008

A raY 0f h0pe ..



Why is it always me?
To bear this undying pain
Does sorrow exist for free?
Or in life’s exam I failed?

Fighting through my tears
Controlling the frown on my face
Waiting for the moment to explode
Waiting the wash-out of this phase.

All the blood flow frozen
Stopping the beat of my veins
Craving to search for heaven
Tasting every drop of the rain.

Weeping morning, noon & night
Hoping from u, a sunlight
This silence is deafening
Wishing the last ray is in sight!




What hAve I d0ne ?

After so many months
Tho’ knowing me inside out
Blames & accuses bombarding me
Chasing me all the way.

Shocked after revealing the truth
Embarrassing me crimson red
Feeling like a worn out feather
Flying in the mid summer’s day.

Have I stooped so low?
To the eyes of my beloved
Not worth even a smile
Like a puppet in the show!

Darling! What have I done?
Is loving you a crime?
Wanting to hug u to my bossom
Wanting you in the long run!




Tuesday 26 August 2008

My innerm0st feelIngs ..

When i sit to pen down my thoughts
I get confused where to start
With brain crushed to extract my emotions
And the pierced feelings like darts.

As speed my memories travel
Even before the ink in my pen dries
They reach my love destination
To open the lids of your eyes

Jerking you from my dreams
Makes me vibrate from here
Whatever happens to you
From inner soul i shudder with fear

Laying down myself to sleep
With eyes wet by tears
But happy my heart feels
Like in front of me u appear!




Monday 25 August 2008

I wiLl flY ..

I have to pick myself up
To show the joy I have in me
Covering the leakage of my soul
The leakage of heart bleeds for thee!

Hiding that I’m fallen apart
Wounding severely to the core
With no beauty touch to patch
With no worth of my pain anymore!

Waiting for years impatiently
For a silver lining of my hope
Just a glimpse of the horizon
Showing ur smile to me in dozen

Enough of the unshed tears
Won’t let them see me cry
The promises I gave u my prince
Ur faith will make me fly!




Sunday 24 August 2008

Am I the 0nly One ???

Am i the only one,
Who thinks of u everyday?
Am I the only one,
Who trespasses ur way?

Am I the only one,
Who dreams of u in my sleep?
Am I the only one,
Who awaits ur sweet beeps?

Am I the only one,
Who weeps for u on my bed?
Am I the only one,
Who cries till my eyes r red?

Am I the only one,
Whose heart grips with pain?
Am I the only one,
Who longs for u in vain?




When Em0ti0n flOws ..

Sitting alone in the dark
With a pin drop silence
The only thing echoing in my ears
That I conquered without license!

Mysteriously I carry a pride
Of owning the charm in you
The charm that impresses me,
For seven births and it’s true!

The darkness becomes heavy
By the thoughts that thicken
Making my heart pounding fast
And my emotions never end.

Wondering if u feel the same
As each second passing by
For in my heart u always remain
Till my last breathe whispers goodbye!




S0meOne is There f0r me ..

Garland of roses surrounds my neck
With hidden thorns poking me like knife
While a false smile appear on my face
Showing dat I’m stepping into a new life

Unable to escape from this madding crowd
Mingling with an obliged desire
Trying to be everyone’s best friend
Surviving each day on the red fire!

Is my freedom snatched away?
Unknown to this childhood play
But when not a pair of arms hugging me
This, I realized the following day!

Someone pulling me from this madding crowd
Assuring me the love on earth
Easing away the sad tones on my face
There, I realized the value of this birth!




Thursday 21 August 2008

PuppEt in G0d's haNd ..

Why do i plunge into this temptation?
When I get only the worse on earth
Why do Im tortured by this nightmare?
Thinking the happy dream’s my worth!

Am I a curse to this world?
Bombarded by the sorrows
Dint life teach me enuff?
Or the lessons I learned r slow?

Being once the victim to the best
Serving even my skin to kid n kin
Smiling to every odds
While dying new deaths within

Not born an orphan in this birth
Considering the dear ones beside
Wanting to abscond somewhere
But their love I fail to hide!




Wednesday 20 August 2008

WantiNg U ..

Clad in the sweat of desire
Expressing u my heavy mood
With my spirit raising high
Within the emotions I brood

Closing my eyes in imagination
That paints the picture of thee
Bringing the dream before my eyes
With u tightly holding me

As my desire mounting more
Wanting u more for real
Crying aloud ur lovely name
For the scars in my heart to heal

Touching the summit of satisfaction
Panting with breathe I exhale
Opening my eyes to the reality
Craving for u, in my sad tale!




Tuesday 19 August 2008

My lAst breAthe ..

Dunno if i shud trust my faith
For to me it is strong
No oceans could wash it
And it could never go wrong

The faith purer than my love
The love that contains that faith
Dominated by the only existence
The existence not for name sake

With every breathe I inhale
Saying that existence is u
For it links with my being
Whether in joy or in blue

My residing on this earth
Is only for a reason clear
Only u acknowledge of it
Will my last breathe stop, my dear!




Monday 18 August 2008

I belEive ..

I believe in my prayers
The prayers filled with u
The faith undefined
The dedication I kept thru

For the words uttered by u
Seems to scare me deep
Yet, the belief I have in Him
Cries louder even in my sleep

If ever miracles exist
Like U, I have achieved
The sunrays of my hope
Carry the message I’ve received

Not every smile is a smile
Nor my tears that flow non-stop
But ur laughter remains precious
Like a diamond on the top!




Friday 15 August 2008

A bliSs ..

When the sky darkens
And the wind getting wild
Brushing the leaves from the trees
Along with my feelings of a child.

Emotionally I’m captured
And handcuffed by my fantasy
Always immersed in ur thots
Not forgetting them easily

In pain there’s a joy
Loving u seems to me a bliss
Worsened the hurt I have
Far from u is what I miss

With no regrets any day
Enticing every moment it jumps
For my search is over
Final destination has come!




Th0ught 0f U ..

Don’t know the reason why
Each time I think of u
My eyes begin to blurr
Coz of the tears rolling down thru’

The image of that shining chest
Blinking my memories
Not in one place my mind rests
Like in song, running around trees

I wonder and wonder
All trivial things on earth
End up crying on my bed
Not knowing if it’s worth

Y is my heart pumping so fast?
When my blood flows slowly
My limbs getting numb
With ur thots so heavenly!




Thursday 14 August 2008

TearS ..

The tear drops escaping from my eyes
Rolling down my soft cheeks
Accompanying the pains they bear
That locked up within for weeks

So strange these silent tears
Multiplying as they flow
Wanting to win their races
Creating the speed as they grow

Not knowing the reason they r born
Fleeing happily from their source
Born from the painful sorrows
Reddening my eyes like rose

I find them whenever u come to mind
Not drying when wiped away
But when ur voice they hear
Where do they vanish I can’t say!




The j0y unf0ld ..

Each time I think of u
My head turns towards the sky
Shining blue to my gaze
Seeing ur face above so high!

A smile blooms on my lips
With happiness comes unknown
Wondering why is this reflection
The reflection of this joy unfold

Do I know the reason?
Is it b’coz I miss u so?
For every cloud passing by
Brings me a message like spy

The message with ur memories
Ur laughter that lingers my ears
The love promised by u
Which lasts for many years?




Monday 11 August 2008

My seArch iS 0ver ..

I never expected to find
The ideal love I left behind
For it’s every girl’s fantasy
To meet the man with right mind

Taking life as given to me
Thinking the love given is the best
Helas! Deep inside me
The love I crave still rests

Exploded when unnoticed
Brings non-stop tears to my joy
Having found the bearer of it
Finally my love isn’t a toy

As alive as the red sun
Chilling like the cold moon
The child inside me erupting
Like the volcano in a noon




Greed f0r U ..

The fragrance in ur breathe
Enchanting all my face
Blowing gently when u talk
Inhaling by me in slow pace.

The few drops of ur drink
Seen at the corner of ur lips
Not allowing u to wipe them off
Taste like nectar, by my lick!!

This desire is torturing me
Twisting n turning when I lay
For promising only ur love
Y do the thot of u turn me grey?

This feeling I yearn for
Makes me guilty to the core
Coz knowing I can be never urs
Y does my greed for u increase more?




Sunday 10 August 2008

DyinG f0r U ..

Y do I adjust my hair?
When I know u never care
Y do I draw my eyes
When u don’t even look at me twice

The feelings that cover my heart
Waiting for u to unveil
To expose my darkest secrets
My secret stories which are real

But I wonder every second
Are my feelings cared?
For they create no impact
Tho’ u know they are always there!

Will one day u cry for me
As I cry everyday
Will one day u look at me?
And nothing beyond u could see!




My AngeL ..

The breeze that brushes above u
I fear it might hurt u like blaze
For every scratch it creates
Increases the frown on my face

Don’t want even a rose to pick u
For u r my little angel
If u r bled by its thorns
Inside my heart will be torn

Holding ur face within my palms
Is what I always long for!
Will that day be within my reach?
Promise, I won’t ask for more

Wanting to protect u from any harm
Is the vow I do to myself
Not even a single grimace
Should ever cross onto ur face

I love u!




Saturday 9 August 2008

AddiCti0n ..

The sweetness in ur voice i hear
Is corrupting me day by day
Addicted to that sweetness
Not missing even a single day.

Ur laughter rings my ears
Ur whisper my heart tears
Ur heavy breathe my chest bears
Ur fantasy my skin wears

The beauty in ur gaze hidden
The charm in ur look thickens
The mind remaining unread
The desires in me u fed

Waiting for the day I see u
Whether it happens or no
For I’ll expect to hear this laughter
That rings my ears and more




Thursday 7 August 2008

The WaiTing ..

The first note i wrote
Was a poem on ‘the waiting’
Not knowing how that waiting is
Very much into me lingering!

There are two ways to see it
The good side n bad side
The fruit of that waiting
Is as sweet as a pie

But the pain clinging to it
Will never go alone
More close to the fruit
It absorbs to the inside bone

Yet, there is a joy to wait
For the one we truly love
From days, weeks and months
With the desire flying like dove!




FeaR ..

Lying on the edge of emotion
Reflecting the memories of my prince
The one and only owner
Of all my dreams that locked up within

The flow of my salty tears
Rolling down to halt on my lips
Tasting the sourness of my fear
As I count my finger tips

The fear of u away from me
Snatching the joy of my dreams
The joy of coming close to u
In my thoughts u flow like stream

Do u have the same fear I wonder?
Or is from me it abides?
For if u sense the same fear
I will shudder from this side




I miSs U ..

The struggles inside my heart
Cries aloud seeking for you
The frown appears when I cry
Unashamedly admits my love

There is not one second
That goes without your thought
Is this what call love?
The battle I alone fought!

As I sit quiet when alone
My chest heaving up n down
Missing few of my heartbeats
Wetting my eyes by their own

What a life this way?
When my dreams go unnoticed
The dreams filled only with you
Crushed down by your feet




Need U AlwaYs ..

When will I stop crying
Each time I think of u?
My tears flow non-stop
That I myself cant control thru

The child exists inside me
Claiming for you greedily
Wanting you always beside
For me to appear with glee

The smile that transforms to tears
The moment u disappear
Like a baby claiming his toffee
Expressing his sadness so clear

Don’t ever do this to me
For I have a heart so soft
Not able to bear this torture
Like milk as pure as I got




DestiNati0n ..

Every time you look at me
The silence deafens my ears
Only my gaze intertwine with yours
Awaiting this moment after years

Our gazes that speak volume
Rhythming the tune of our hearts
But when you utter a word
It seems coming from far apart

Longing for your touch
Ripened like a new fruit
The crimson appears on my cheeks
Oh! I am feeling good.

Cherishing this very moment
That life could ever give
Enjoying each passing second
On your laps I will forever live.




Wednesday 6 August 2008

DesIrE ..



My eyes wander along the path
That leaves your footprint’s marks
For they bring along my heart
To the destination full of sparks



 I dinno my name sounds so pretty
Each time uttered by you
It echoes along the same path
Whenever u address me thru


Will I get more than ur utterance?
Calling Naaz does not suffice my yearn
If allowed, I will ask for more
Your love I struggled to earn


The Almighty, aware of my feelings
Each feeling I discharge for you
If my tears could tell stories
The stories of my feeling blue!




The Pr0mise ..

U said u’ll never leave me
That is what I believe so
The promise that makes me sweat
Is it due to fear or more?

The sweat that rolls down my chest
Awaiting for u to kiss it dry
Ur kiss that chills my body
Removing the heat from inside!

Why should I sweat this way
Don’t I believe what u say?
My inner self assures me
The truth that comes what may!

Now I know why this heat envelopes me
Not of doubt in your words
But of the joy untold
That excites me beyond its worth!




Monday 4 August 2008

Sh0uld I diE agAin ???

If this earth is made up of clay
My world would be easy to mould
Shaping itself to any arrows pierced
No matter in whose hand it is hold

But helas! this earth is made of stone
Though seems hard from outside
Hardened by the pain n sorrows
That created by U and I

Enough of this torture
That I get from different senses
For I want to hug myself
And get rid of this living hell

Why isn’t there one soul
To show me some mercy
Are my sufferings a clown’s play
Juggling me as much as can be!




Sunday 3 August 2008

DejEcti0n ...

When the stars high above beat my face
I feel that sensation in my soul raised.
Thinking of my wasted number of years
That creeps in me a kind of fear.

Alone when left with my ownself
All I do is let my mind wander…
Am I a destitute soul created?
That’s the question I often ponder

Love, such a beautiful thing always
Y don’t I have in my life I yearn
Is this soul a cast-away?
The lesson I failed to learn

Is it in the corner of the creator’s mind
That I will never be ignored somewhere
One day someone will turn her head
To know I exist there




My CruSh ...

When the autumn wind chills my body
And my heart gets drenched
Ur thots that envelope me
The only being that God sent

Your lovely smile touches my heart
Your tiny gigglings tear me apart
Janeman, where are you?
Is our bond, a piece of art?

The assurance u feed in me
that shudders me.....no one can be
The happiness u feed in me
Well! nobody else can ever see

Will one day we'll hold hands?
And scan the whole tinsel town
I'll walk with head raised high
Owning the bond i have in thy.




WilL The m00n sHinE f0r me ?

Each morning after its long night...
I'm always awaken by a fright...
Will the sun above smile at me?
or the rainbow blindfold me?

Hitting the age of mid thirties...
I still love running around trees.
But I know no joys without tears
Nor has my heart escaped from fears...

Why am i haunted by separation?
And put me in eternal depression?
Won't roses grow along my path?
Or just thorns to tear me apart?

But not far from the madding crowd,
A voice from somewhere assuring me
That even if the sun refuses to smile,
The moon will do that for free.




Am I thE Only 0ne f0r U ??

The wonder i feel on earth
Has not stopped surprising me
The cruelty it contains within
Snatched my being without pity.

The swirl it takes my head
For a free ride without being asked
Where I see u vague before me
I wonder is it ur task?

Is it my imagination?
Y dint u stop for me?
Am I asking too much?
Just to see the love in thee.

At last I realized one thing
This world is not where I belong
Yearning to be ur own
Embraced in ur arms I feel so strong!